Friday, December 27, 2013

Tired

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas/Holiday!

We have a sick person (the Mr) who is laying in bed groaning about being sick. I'm pretty sure it's the same thing that ran through all of us last weekend. If it is, this will make my stepson the only person in the family to not get it.

I can't get moving today. It's either because A) Holiday Hangover, B) I'm still a little sick (the massive heartburn would support this theory), C) The melatonin I took last night to help me sleep but didn't stop me from waking up at 3am is still in my system and making me sluggish, D) that time of the month, or E) because I didn't sleep well last night (see [C]).

In any case I did play a video game with my daughter (I played with my son yesterday, my stepson the day before that and I tried on all my stepdaughter's nail polish with her lol). Now I just need to play a game with my youngest boy and I'll have played with all of them.

I'm off to do nothing. Not too excited for the New Year, yet. Possibly because I'm just still so tired. We will see. :)

Thursday, December 19, 2013

No blahs for us!

Things are going well.

My stepdaughter was supposed to be training to get her driver's license when she turns 16, which is this month, but due to several things school-wise, she was put on the back burner and hasn't met her required school driving hours. It took three school trips from me and just one from my husband before they finally had her start driving (I had a huge problem with people driving that weren't turning 16 for six months [OR MORE], but here she was needing to get those hours in and being ignored [not that she was fighting for it all that much]). So she's finally been getting her driving hours in.

As it stands she still needs some 30-odd hours of driving time to complete with us before she qualifies for her driver's license....so it's unlikely she will get her license when she turns 16....but she is well on her way FINALLY!

I wanted her to drive me everywhere over the summer but she refused. (Like I said she wasn't fighting too hard.)

The kids only have a few more days of school and then they're home for Christmas break. Two whole weeks of doing whatever they feel like (after chores are done because I'm a mean mom). I won't like all the extra noise but I like spending time with the kids and it will be super nice to be able to stay in the house. I FOR ONCE have all my shopping FINISHED and I don't like going out in the cold at all so it will be wonderful to stay nice and warm. :)

The big day is nearly here....6 days until Christmas. This is the first year that I can ever remember that I'm excited for Christmas. I've already told everyone I don't need anything so if you haven't gone shopping for me, don't bother. :)

The only three things on my Christmas list this year were 1) All the Child's Play (Chucky) movies on Bluray. 2) Dr. Sleep (Stephen King), and 3) Running shoes.

If I get them great! If not I will start buying them when Christmas is over.

Even though Christmas is near I've started unpacking again. The husband started doing it and he does it wrong LOL. He brings in boxes without even checking them and dumps them in the basement and says: "Deal with it."

Well, ONE box was clothes that were being saved for kids when they get a little bigger so that was a waste to bring in, and the other box was movie boxes, wii boxes, ps2 game boxes and other boxes....all empty. So THAT was a waste to bring in also. He should just leave it to me.

Our washing machine was broken so I'm way behind on laundry, but the husband fixed it yesterday so it's laundry all day today. Waiting on the dryer means only a couple to three loads a day max, but it's better than nothing.

I think that's it.

Merry Christmas y'all!

Tuesday, December 10, 2013

It's that time of year:

December is the BUSIEST month of the YEAR for us!!! So naturally I don't have a lot of time to blog. Not that I'm doing anything really worth blogging about.

I'm not sure if it's because we're in a new house, a cleaner house, a warmer house, I haven't been sick in about a year, or maybe it's because I've been exercising every day, but this is the first year I've been kind of excited about Christmas in a long, long time.

I generally don't like Christmas, and I really haven't liked it since I was 13. I find it way too commercialized, I find it the holiday of the selfish people, I hear horrible stories of people who feel so much pressure to buy junk for their family that they feel forced to steal to make ends meet. All my atheist friends think Christmas is by far the best holiday of the year (which I find rather ironic considering that Christmas is supposed to be a celebration of Christ). Since I moved to Illinois it's also the time that we have had to go out driving to see family in the worst driving conditions of the year.

You ask most kids why Christmas is their favorite holiday and they don't say anything about Jesus, it's almost always "Cuz I get presents."

I will admit it's nice to get things and it's nice to buy things for the kids and friends and families, and since I've had kids it's pleasant to experience their excitement, but I feel like you should get things for your loved ones and not-so-loved ones more than just one month out of the year. Christmas has never been my favorite holiday. That's just who I am.

Since I was 13 I have told people they don't need to get me presents, and that's still true. People laugh it off or outright ignore me because they think it's a plea for attention or that if Christmas morning came and I had nothing I would hate everyone for not buying me presents. That's just not true. If I woke up Christmas morning and didn't have any presents, I would still enjoy the kids opening their gifts. Still, I stopped beating that dead horse a long time ago. I always keep a list of things I would want for when the day comes when I'm asked what I want. Right now that list only has three things on it. Of course, it's really easy to keep me happy. Gimme a cool pack of playing cards and I'm just thrilled. Or shoes. You can never go wrong with shoes LOL. Let's not forget my horrible hoarding of books.

Anyway, USUALLY (since I moved to Illinois, anyway) once the leaves start changing colors I start going through a depression. It has been extremely bad in the past (needed small forms of therapy), but generally these days I can deal with it on my own. I have done some wallowing but in general my depression has been a physical thing, nearly an entity. I can usually recognize it for what it is and deal with it in a way where it doesn't disrupt my daily life.

This year I can feel it hanging around....it's almost like it's an arms-length away but I can keep it pushed back. But it hasn't gotten any kind of hold on me. I'm very grateful for this.

It's taken me to a whole new awareness of Christmas. Usually I'm stressed about this time of year and my part in perpetuating the commercialism. But this year I keep wandering around my new house with all my old decorations and a couple new ones, including a wonderful new 7-foot tree that a friend gave us, and I feel what can only be described as good old-fashioned Christmas cheer. I've been getting a warm, snuggly sensation in my stomach. I've been wrapping presents and thinking of how happy the kids will be with their gifts. I'm touched by the season for the first time in over two decades.

That's enough of a present for me!

And even better, my dad agreed to what I've been asking for since I was 15. Instead of buying me a present, he's going to make a donation to one of the charities on my list. He did something similar last year and this year I sent him a whole list of charities and what the money would be doing. It made me very happy.

Merry Christmas!

Tuesday, December 3, 2013

I found this wonderful blog: Organized Home and found THIS on it: Your Clutter Personality Type.

I am several of these types, unfortunately, but most of them I can work through except for "The Hoarder." I know exactly WHY I am a hoarder, but I just can't help it. I have STOPPED (for the most part) hoarding things but I can't let go of the stuff I've already accumulated because "I will need that someday!!"

So I'm working VERY HARD on USING all that stuff, and whatever stuff I can't go through I'm going to have to get rid of it no matter how much it distresses me. THIS MUST BE DONE!! I'm putting it on my calendar right now. THIS MUST BE DONE!! I will not die leaving boxes full of magazines for my kids to go through!!

I'll try to come up with a plan sometime today but I have dogs to walk, laundry to do, Christmas boxes to haul out of the garage and cleaning as per usual. So we'll see. :)

PS This house is (so far) AWESOME at staying warm!