Scary Times

There are changes looming over our horizon. Change is always scary, especially with me not working at the moment. But certain things are threatening change and I'm trying to be very calm, very open-minded, and of course very supportive of my husband and my children nearing adulthood.

Still, not knowing for sure if things are going to have to change makes me a bigger wreck than knowing for sure something will change and being able to act towards that end. Not knowing and having to just SIT here imagining the very worst is not good for me.

Today I did very well. I've gotten back into the habit of working out every day, so that's a step in the right direction. I've been cleaning and organizing things here and there. I'm trying to get back into doing laundry (if you don't know, my husband for whatever bizarre reason decided to do the laundry. He did it for two straight weeks and then stopped but didn't tell me. Now we have a mountain of clothes and I am left to deal with it. I have a wash-to-sell pile, a wash-to-donate pile, a set-it-on-fire-and-get-rid-of-it pile[this one is pretty easy to deal with LOL] and a still-enormous wash/fold/separate/put-away pile, but I was so used to NOT doing it it's been hard to bring it back into my life), and so far I'm getting one-to-two loads done a day.

I'm trying to get things ready for a garage sale.

I'm back to reading to my two littles almost every night.

Things are just now getting back to a productive state, and now I have to keep a weather-eye open at that horizon, to see before it gets too late what changes this year will bring.